I've been working on a blog post for the last week or so. It's important and it has taken me much longer to write than I anticipated.
Something about putting it all out there, putting your heart in your writing, and letting others read it...it's hard.
Even more than that, it's hard for me to put into words exactly what I'm feeling. Which is funny to me. I have no trouble expressing myself, typically. But this? This deep stuff? Yeah, that's hard.
So I'm letting it sit there, in draft form, taking up space in my heart and in my head for a little while longer. It'll come, eventually.
In the meantime, I am soaking in the moments in my little home.
Gray walked across the room for the first time yesterday!
We were lucky enough to capture it on video and I've rewatched it at least a million times. Her smiling face, the sweet giggle, how excited she was when she made it to me. Wow, just amazing stuff!
I think back to my first two babies and their first steps. Man, time has just flown by. And it's really not slowing down at all! As we cross this next threshold, she will be walking and running further and further away from her babyness, and as exciting and awesome as it is to watch, there is a teensy bit of longing for her to just stay small and cuddly for a little bit longer.
But that's not how life works, does it? I distinctly remember being 14 and just exasperated that life was going by so slowly and when the heck would I be able to get started with really living? And here I am now, half a life away from that moment, and I just need it to slow down a bit so I can catch up.
Enjoy today, friends. Every moment of it. I most definitely will.