Today was my "I'm in labor!" day for Gray. I don't feel like it is possible for her to have already been here for an entire year! It seems like she was just born yesterday. At the same time, I feel like she's been a part of our family forever!
I don't have an "I'm in labor!" day for Bam every year, which always makes me smile. It's like our own special day, the last day where he was safe inside of me, and the day before my life changed in so many ways. Our little guy was THIS.CLOSE. to being a Leap Day baby! So my labor day only comes once every four years. Silly, I know, but it makes me smile.
My little guy turned five a few days a go, and my baby turns one tomorrow.
I'm just in awe at how fast time is flying by!
There have been a few days lately that have been long and hard, and I count the hours to bedtime (for them and for me). Though the days sometimes feel long, life is going by so fast! Tee was just Gray's age, I blinked, and now she's going to parties and losing teeth and having her own opinions.
I know every mom says this, but it is so true - they grow up SO fast!
I've been trying to be more conscious of our moments together. I'm trying to simplify our schedules so we have more time to be together and to play, and less time driving and doing things that aren't as important. I'm working hard to say "yes" to them more often. It's hard after a long day of school and work and homework and teething to step outside my own wants and needs, and to realize that Bam is only going to ask me to play Star Wars with him for so long. One day he won't ask me and I will have missed all of this. I'll miss the kiss on the cheek of gratitude from him and the whispered "Thank you, mama" that I love so much.
He still calls me "mama" and it's the sweetest sound in the world.
It's not easy, this motherhood thing, and I sometimes wish that we had a couple practice years or chances for do-overs. Each age and stage is so different and so exciting, and it's such a hard balance between doing the right thing and enjoying each moment and not messing them up.
Tonight I will kiss my little baby girl to sleep and tomorrow she will wake up as a one year old.
Amazing.
Saying yes at the end of the day is sooo hard, but something I'm working on too. My baby is almost 8 and will be a preteen before I know it and won't want me around that much. I try so hard to remember that when I'm worn out and want me time. There will be plenty of me time before I know it.
ReplyDeleteOh Sarah, so, so true! It's so hard to live in the now sometimes and not say "I'll just do it tomorrow" - those tomorrows come quickly and pile on so fast! It's so hard to say yes and spend that extra time sometimes, but it's so worthwhile!
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